Trp\u00edm absolutn\u00edm nedostatkem slov i my\u0161lenek. Jsem \u00fapln\u011b pr\u00e1zdn\u00e1, venku pr\u0161\u00ed. Kdybych byla n\u011bkde jinde, tak mi ten d\u00e9\u0161\u0165 nevad\u00ed, ale te\u010f a tady mi vad\u00ed. Vad\u00ed mi tak hrozn\u011b moc, jako v\u0161echno ostatn\u00ed. Dnes mi vad\u00ed v\u0161echno.<\/p>\n
Stra\u0161n\u011b bych pot\u0159ebovala m\u00edt svoje m\u00edsto, sv\u016fj byt nebo aspo\u0148 sv\u016fj pokoj. Cht\u011bla bych zase kreslit, vyr\u00e1b\u011bt \u0161perky, balistiky a \u0161\u00edt. Ale tady to n\u011bjak prost\u011b nejde j\u00e1 nev\u00edm pro\u010d, ale nejde to tady. V\u017edycky, kdy\u017e p\u0159ijdu do sv\u00fdho b\u00fdval\u00fdho pokoje, kde pr\u00e1v\u011b s\u00eddl\u00ed m\u016fj otec a nechce migrovat jinam, tak m\u00e1m milion n\u00e1pad\u016f a chci v\u0161echno d\u011bsn\u011b d\u011blat. A pak se vr\u00e1t\u00edm sem a je v\u0161echno v prdeli. Prost\u011b na n\u011bjak\u00fdch m\u00edstech to asi nejde.<\/p>\n
Cht\u011bla bych m\u00edt poli\u010dky, kde bych m\u011bla svoje v\u011bci a nechci je m\u00edt po\u0159\u00e1d v krabic\u00edch nah\u00e1zen\u00fd. Cht\u011bla bych zrcadlo. Nevid\u011bla jsem se ve velk\u00fdm zrcadle p\u016fl roku, nev\u00edm jak r\u00e1no vypad\u00e1m, jak chod\u00edm ven, nev\u00edm nic.<\/p>\n
Abych mohla m\u00edt byt, tak bych musela m\u00edt pr\u00e1ci. Norm\u00e1ln\u00ed. A ne d\u011blat osm hodin denn\u011b za minim\u00e1ln\u00ed mzdu. Mus\u00edm jezdit ka\u017ed\u00fd den na kole, proto\u017ee mi ten plat nesta\u010d\u00ed na to, abych cel\u00fd m\u011bs\u00edc jezdila vlakem. Plat\u00edm je\u0161t\u011b n\u011bjak\u00fd v\u011bci a na tohle u\u017e mi to n\u011bjak ned\u00e1. Dobr\u00e9 ne.<\/p>\n
Dneska jsem smutkem cel\u00fd den jedla. Bohu\u017eel. Fakt jsem jen jedla a to i pras\u00e1rny… m\u00e1m to obr\u00e1cen\u011b, n\u011bkdo nej\u00ed a n\u011bkdo naopak. Bohu\u017eel jsem opak a \u00fapln\u011b se hrozn\u011b blb\u011b cejt\u00edm, proto\u017ee jsem p\u0159ecpan\u00e1, bol\u00ed m\u011b b\u0159icho, je nafoukl\u00fd, neusnu.<\/p>\n
Pro\u010d tady nen\u00ed norm\u00e1ln\u00ed pr\u00e1ce aspo\u0148 tro\u0161ku? Pot\u0159ebovala bych si vyd\u011blat na kurz angli\u010dtiny p\u0159edev\u0161\u00edm. Za ty dva roky ze \u0161koly v\u016fbec nic nev\u00edm a v lep\u0161\u00edch prac\u00edch cht\u011bj\u00ed angli\u010dtinu na perfektn\u00ed \u00farovni. Tak\u017ee pot\u0159ebuju toto. Ale s t\u00edmhle si na to nikdy nevyd\u011bl\u00e1m. Panebo\u017ee.<\/p>\n
Samoz\u0159ejm\u011b jsem r\u00e1da, \u017ee m\u00e1m aspo\u0148 n\u011bco, jo no. Ale nem\u016f\u017eu se hnout d\u00e1l s t\u00edmhle. Aspo\u0148 kdybych m\u011bla po ve\u010derech ty chut\u011b d\u011blat n\u011bco pro sebe, ale taky nem\u00e1m.<\/p>\n
Tragick\u00fd post 1 je u konce, d\u011bkuji za z\u00e1jem.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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